So, all day i've been thinking about what to write and how to blog. I obsess with what should I write, how can I make it interesting and sound good but intelligent so people want to read. As a university student we must make every sentence count. Each paragraph needs an intro, statement and conclusion but to blog what is that? And really who wants to hear the ramblings that go on in my head or where we stopped today? Really it is quite self-centred! and the dialogue in my head is endless. So I sit to write and find myself staring at the screen just as I do when I must get a paper finished either for work or university. I really want to write about what this whole experience is like but then where do I start? I want to share the amazing photos Bill takes and try to describe the feelings that they bring and the comments the kids are making. I want to share them because all of this is so special to me and I want you to have some of that.
Our kids are wonderful but they have challenged us today. The first thing Bill and I always do is say where did we go wrong today? What do we expect our children to be like? We are on this great adventure, and I really think they see this, but I think their expectation is different. Maybe this is why we are so often butting heads with our kids because of our expectations of the day, the week and or the year. I often think that if we as parents can be on the same page then we can handle anything but how do we get on the same page as the kids? After all they are kids and they don't have to nor do I think they should deal with the same things we do.
So, here we are on "holidays" and I find I am still saying "I just need to do ..." or "when I am finished....I will come with you" or "can you just get out of the way".... all these comments are still coming out of my mouth and I am not working at the moment out of the house, I no longer have university to contend with and we are not at home so there are no interruptions. The square area of the our tiny house now is about 12 square meters so the cleaning and sorting is next to nothing. I am proud of how light we are travelling (kids are great backpackers) so really this is not the issue. What is it... we spoke today about taking time to settle into this new routine. How each time we stop there are jobs to do and should take us only about 40 minutes to have it all set up and how Bill and I are trying to slow down.
But how do you slow down? How do you stop the racing in your head? How do you just be? When Bill and I have travelled we have just soaked it up, walked around, observing what was right in front of us. We have never been ones to seek out the tourist sites (we did go to many however). I've hardly ever used a tourist guide and yet this trip we have two books, maps and an iPad with apps to look places up. This stuff is great but really what happened to just taking it all in. I need to meditate... I've read for many years now about meditation and have worked at it diligently for quite some time...but damn its hard! Now I am in one of the most beautiful spots in the world with little distraction just us and still the dialogue in my head continues.
Today, I have no pictures for you just my ramblings. Perhaps this paints something abstract for you in your head! We'll see what tomorrow brings!
Signing off for now....
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